Pandora’s playing softly in the background, just finished an amazing dinner, my glass of wine is half full, the dude playing 2k11 and talking mess via bluetooth, and the rain drops are tapping lightly against my window.
In an absolutely pleasant mood. Perhaps it’s because one of the things I mentioned, or perhaps it’s because all of the above.
Despite my day starting out a little on the rough side, the ending of the night is ending on a positive note.
The last days of 2010 are upon us and I can honestly say that this year was one to go in the record books. I’ve gone through good, bad, ugly, and absolutely beautiful.. and at the end of it all I can still truly say I am blessed beyond belief.
I know everyone says it, but I feel like 2011 has many great things in store for me and mine.
I’ve learned how to handle life’s trials and tribulations over these past 22 years so whatever happens, whether positive or negative, I’m grateful for.
I’m becoming me circa 2005, but along with being totally optimistic about any and everything, I have life’s lessons to help me along the way just in case I run into any detours or road bumps. I won’t say I’ve got it all figured out but I’m pretty confident, and that puts me ahead of the game.
Finishing this last bit of wine.. and i’m off to relax.
hugs and kisses,
-d
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
Music Monday
I just recently got put on to Big K.R.I.T. I really like this dude. Got a southern feel but a midwest type flow feel to himself.
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It's 12:31 AM and I'm sitting here sulking in the new music I've blessed my hard-drive with. The new Jazmine Sullivan CD is absolutely amazing. Big K.R.I.T Mixtapes are in rotation as well.
When the music hits, you feel no pain.
I made a promise to blog more often. My life is pretty repetitive so it's hard for me to find inspiration, but it does hit me every once in a while.
I appreciate those who have been keeping up with my blogs for years and who send me the occasional message to update my blog more often.
I know people make lists of new years "resolutions" that they follow-through with for a few months, but I promise I'll try to hold up my end of the bargain this upcoming year to blog more often. To find my muses in everyday things and to give the people what they want! LOL
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Friday, December 10, 2010
Love Live Life Proceed Progress . . .
It's 4:30 in the morning and I'm "suppose" to be up in about 2 hours.. The 5 hour energy served its purpose to help me study, however, I didn't know it would also affect my sleep, or lack thereof.
It's that time of the year again. Dead week. Study, study, eat, study, try and sleep, and repeat.
Best of luck to everyone.
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The other day I was talking to a friend about the subject of marriage. She's newly divorced and one could say that her opinion on the said subject is a little biased. I think the same goes for many divorcees. They tell you not to do it, enjoy your freedom, and to run like hell if he even bends down on one knee to tie his shoe..
okay I'm kidding,but you get the jest.
The same applies for any situation, not just marriage. If one has a bad experience they tend to steer clear of going down that path again and will surely try to prevent anyone and everyone of going through the motions as well.
Every situation is different. As much as folks hate to admit it, it's the truth. I respect someone 100% if they don't let fear of the past affect their lives. Change is inevitable folks. Now this doesn't apply to those who stay in the same cycle and expect things to change, that's just being naive. The same-shit-different-day cycle? I'll pass.
Life is wayy too short.
Don't wish you could have done things differently, be grateful that it happened. In life, the test always comes first, and the lesson soon after.
Love Live Life Proceed Progress . . .
It's that time of the year again. Dead week. Study, study, eat, study, try and sleep, and repeat.
Best of luck to everyone.
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The other day I was talking to a friend about the subject of marriage. She's newly divorced and one could say that her opinion on the said subject is a little biased. I think the same goes for many divorcees. They tell you not to do it, enjoy your freedom, and to run like hell if he even bends down on one knee to tie his shoe..
okay I'm kidding,but you get the jest.
The same applies for any situation, not just marriage. If one has a bad experience they tend to steer clear of going down that path again and will surely try to prevent anyone and everyone of going through the motions as well.
Every situation is different. As much as folks hate to admit it, it's the truth. I respect someone 100% if they don't let fear of the past affect their lives. Change is inevitable folks. Now this doesn't apply to those who stay in the same cycle and expect things to change, that's just being naive. The same-shit-different-day cycle? I'll pass.
Life is wayy too short.
Don't wish you could have done things differently, be grateful that it happened. In life, the test always comes first, and the lesson soon after.
Love Live Life Proceed Progress . . .
Friday, November 26, 2010
2010 New Webbie & Lil Phat "If Lovin' U Is Wrong"
"You don't know what you've done to me,
see actually you've captured me
and locked me in your only world
and it's like we can't find the key
i dont feel we need the key
feel like it's where we need to be.."
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Thankful
It's hard to believe it's already Thanksgiving 2010.
It seems like the year barely began and we're approaching the end of it.
I've said it once, and I'll say it again, Thanksgiving IS my FAVORITE holiday.
Something about comfort food, spending time with those nearest and dearest to your heart, and the inevitable food coma's warms my heart to no end.
I received a few text messages at the crack of dawn and can't seem to fall back asleep.. so until everyone else wakes up, I shall blog.
Many people take this time of year to reflect on their lives and realize what their grateful for. I suppose everyday is like Thanksgiving for me minus the feast and gathering of families, because everyday I'm blessed to see another day and blessed for everything in my life.
My family, my unconditional love. They've been there for me through thick and thin. Good and bad, and I know will always be there.
My amazing friends. We have so many memories, inside jokes, and love for each other it's so beautiful. Those girls are truly my backbone and have been for as long as I can remember.. Forever my soul mates.
My love, oh my love. It's been a long time coming but we've finally got it wrong enough to get it right. So blessed to have found a man who loves me as much if not more.
Good health and a steady job.. you really don't need much more in life. The best things in life really are free.
Have a blessed holiday everyone <3
It seems like the year barely began and we're approaching the end of it.
I've said it once, and I'll say it again, Thanksgiving IS my FAVORITE holiday.
Something about comfort food, spending time with those nearest and dearest to your heart, and the inevitable food coma's warms my heart to no end.
I received a few text messages at the crack of dawn and can't seem to fall back asleep.. so until everyone else wakes up, I shall blog.
Many people take this time of year to reflect on their lives and realize what their grateful for. I suppose everyday is like Thanksgiving for me minus the feast and gathering of families, because everyday I'm blessed to see another day and blessed for everything in my life.
My family, my unconditional love. They've been there for me through thick and thin. Good and bad, and I know will always be there.
My amazing friends. We have so many memories, inside jokes, and love for each other it's so beautiful. Those girls are truly my backbone and have been for as long as I can remember.. Forever my soul mates.
My love, oh my love. It's been a long time coming but we've finally got it wrong enough to get it right. So blessed to have found a man who loves me as much if not more.
Good health and a steady job.. you really don't need much more in life. The best things in life really are free.
Have a blessed holiday everyone <3
Sunday, November 14, 2010
MUSIC . MUZAK . MUSE-ICK
This past weekend I updated my IPOD with lots of goodies.
Must Haves:
J. Cole - Friday Night Lights
This mixtape is flawless. Start to Finish . Beginning to End . I can say this honestly, J. Cole in my opinion has never had a bad track. He's finally getting the shine he deserves.
up next...
Kanye West - My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy
I've been a Kanye Fan since 'College Dropout'. Every time he's been to Dallas, I've been in there like swim-wear. This album, this album right here, is a work of pure art. The only album I didn't take too much of a fancy towards was 808's and Heartbreaks, I suppose it was an acquired taste.. you either loved it or hated it.. there's really no in between. But this album, it's Old school Kanye with a hint of progression and a ton of creativity. This album, like J. Cole's, can get the start to finish rotation. No skip's, just straight play.
Last but not least:
Joe Budden - Mood Muzik 4
One of the reason's why I really like Joe is because he really does listen to his fan's. He'll go back and forth with you on Twitter, really take you honest opinion, and isn't scared to show who he really is. MM4 is the equivalent of him putting his soul on a disc. It's all there, raw, open, and honest.
I know I'm guilty of pirating all 3 of these album's, but trust I will be going out and purchasing them. In the past I'd burn the discs and hit the concerts, I felt like it somehow evened out.. haha.
Good Music Overload, and lovin' the fact.
Must Haves:
J. Cole - Friday Night Lights
This mixtape is flawless. Start to Finish . Beginning to End . I can say this honestly, J. Cole in my opinion has never had a bad track. He's finally getting the shine he deserves.
up next...
Kanye West - My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy
I've been a Kanye Fan since 'College Dropout'. Every time he's been to Dallas, I've been in there like swim-wear. This album, this album right here, is a work of pure art. The only album I didn't take too much of a fancy towards was 808's and Heartbreaks, I suppose it was an acquired taste.. you either loved it or hated it.. there's really no in between. But this album, it's Old school Kanye with a hint of progression and a ton of creativity. This album, like J. Cole's, can get the start to finish rotation. No skip's, just straight play.
Last but not least:
Joe Budden - Mood Muzik 4
One of the reason's why I really like Joe is because he really does listen to his fan's. He'll go back and forth with you on Twitter, really take you honest opinion, and isn't scared to show who he really is. MM4 is the equivalent of him putting his soul on a disc. It's all there, raw, open, and honest.
I know I'm guilty of pirating all 3 of these album's, but trust I will be going out and purchasing them. In the past I'd burn the discs and hit the concerts, I felt like it somehow evened out.. haha.
Good Music Overload, and lovin' the fact.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
“People get lost when they think of Happiness as a destination.
We’re always thinking that someday we’ll be happy.
We’ll get that car, or that job, or that person in our lives that will fix everything.
But happiness is a mood, and it’s a condition, not a destination.
It’s like being tired or hungry, it’s not permanent. It comes and goes and that’s okay.
And I feel like if people thought if it that way, they’d find happiness a lot more often.”
- One Tree Hill
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Strengthening Your Spiritual Side 101
“It takes more courage to reveal insecurities than to hide them, more strength to relate to people than to dominate them, more 'manhood' to abide by thought-out principles rather than blind reflex. Toughness is in the soul and spirit, not in muscles and an immature mind.”
- Alex Karras
- Alex Karras
Monday, October 25, 2010
Je L'adore
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." - Bob Marley
Friday, October 22, 2010
Social Networking and Relationships
Ever since the birth of social networking sites, relationships more often than none have been deteriorating faster than ever.
These sites such as Facebook and Twitter show every single move you make, and the private inbox? Let's not even go there.
I've been put in a few different situations with my past relationships, each with a different outcome.
I had one relationship where we were active on 2 different networks. The problems it caused? Slim to none, if that.
I had another relationship where we were both active on 2 out of the 3 same social networking sites. Did we have problems? shiiiiiit, did we NOT have problems?
In today's society, a lot of people are just straight up trifling. The days of gentlemen and ladies with respect are out the window, and the uprising of side-pieces, jump off's, and booty calls are at an all time high. For the simple reason that these hoes (both men and women can be hoes) just don't care.
What you won't do, someone else will, and they know it too.
So now at a fork in the road, if you're both active on the same networks, are you two friends/following one another? If not, what is the reasoning? Elimination of plausible drama? Your own virtual space without the hassle of 21 questions? The security of having what you do be private just in case you slip up via the world wide web?
Is it better to fully walk by faith and not by sight? Or would you rather be able to see everything for what it is, whether good bad or ugly and cut your losses sooner than you would have if you had not known, because remember, everything done in the dark, eventually comes to light.
I've heard opinions everywhere from Facebook ruins relationships, to individuals in relationships should not even be on a social networking site out of respect for their relationship. Why? Because opportunity only knocks once, but temptation stays leaning on the doorbell.
Trust is imperative for any relationship, and if anyone is given the reason not to trust.. the relationship will soon be approaching its expiration date. One really has to ask themselves, aside from the drama caused from the social networking sites, how is the relationship? We've got to take ourselves back, back to the days prior to cell phones, facbeook, myspace, and twitter and see if the problems truly lie within these sites or are they simply providing fuel for the already burning fire.
When it comes to love; Socially: To Friend or Not To Friend? THAT is the question.
These sites such as Facebook and Twitter show every single move you make, and the private inbox? Let's not even go there.
I've been put in a few different situations with my past relationships, each with a different outcome.
I had one relationship where we were active on 2 different networks. The problems it caused? Slim to none, if that.
I had another relationship where we were both active on 2 out of the 3 same social networking sites. Did we have problems? shiiiiiit, did we NOT have problems?
In today's society, a lot of people are just straight up trifling. The days of gentlemen and ladies with respect are out the window, and the uprising of side-pieces, jump off's, and booty calls are at an all time high. For the simple reason that these hoes (both men and women can be hoes) just don't care.
What you won't do, someone else will, and they know it too.
So now at a fork in the road, if you're both active on the same networks, are you two friends/following one another? If not, what is the reasoning? Elimination of plausible drama? Your own virtual space without the hassle of 21 questions? The security of having what you do be private just in case you slip up via the world wide web?
Is it better to fully walk by faith and not by sight? Or would you rather be able to see everything for what it is, whether good bad or ugly and cut your losses sooner than you would have if you had not known, because remember, everything done in the dark, eventually comes to light.
I've heard opinions everywhere from Facebook ruins relationships, to individuals in relationships should not even be on a social networking site out of respect for their relationship. Why? Because opportunity only knocks once, but temptation stays leaning on the doorbell.
Trust is imperative for any relationship, and if anyone is given the reason not to trust.. the relationship will soon be approaching its expiration date. One really has to ask themselves, aside from the drama caused from the social networking sites, how is the relationship? We've got to take ourselves back, back to the days prior to cell phones, facbeook, myspace, and twitter and see if the problems truly lie within these sites or are they simply providing fuel for the already burning fire.
When it comes to love; Socially: To Friend or Not To Friend? THAT is the question.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
R A N G E R S
3-1... one more game then we're going to the world series babyyyyy.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
#Rangers #Swag!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
#Rangers #Swag!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Ironic
Human's are funny in a sense. A majority of us spend a lot of time praying. Praying for something our heart desires, for the well being of those near and dear, and some.. for a miracle.
But what happens when our prayers are answered? When what we've been praying for day after day is within grasp?
We hesitate, we second-guess, and we hit a stand still.
I use to over-analyze, over-worry, over-think.. Within the past year I've lost people close to me, not temporarily, forever. My view of life has been altered, and I tend to value each new day I'm granted more than the one before.
I remember fearing love, fearing pain, fearing expressing myself. Opportunities passed, hearts were broken, and regrets formed from words left unsaid.
I guess you could say I'm a free spirit now. Regardless of what happens, I do what's in my heart, I say what's on my mind (whether good or bad), and I embrace any and everything that comes my way. Why? Because I'd rather be able to feel every smile, every tear, every pleasure, every pain.. instead of never being able to feel it again.
Life's wayy too short babes.
Very few people ever reach this emotional-physical-mental nirvana.. but once you get here.. it's a wonderful feeling.. trust.
Motivated like no other, love in my heart, and good health.. really nothing more you need. The best things in life, really are free.
But what happens when our prayers are answered? When what we've been praying for day after day is within grasp?
We hesitate, we second-guess, and we hit a stand still.
I use to over-analyze, over-worry, over-think.. Within the past year I've lost people close to me, not temporarily, forever. My view of life has been altered, and I tend to value each new day I'm granted more than the one before.
I remember fearing love, fearing pain, fearing expressing myself. Opportunities passed, hearts were broken, and regrets formed from words left unsaid.
I guess you could say I'm a free spirit now. Regardless of what happens, I do what's in my heart, I say what's on my mind (whether good or bad), and I embrace any and everything that comes my way. Why? Because I'd rather be able to feel every smile, every tear, every pleasure, every pain.. instead of never being able to feel it again.
Life's wayy too short babes.
Very few people ever reach this emotional-physical-mental nirvana.. but once you get here.. it's a wonderful feeling.. trust.
Motivated like no other, love in my heart, and good health.. really nothing more you need. The best things in life, really are free.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Product Of The Week
EOS's Lip Balm
* Long-lasting moisture
* Shea butter & vitamin E
* Smoothes on clear
* New smooth sphere precisely glides on to lips
* Twist-off top
* Gluten-free
* Paraben-free
* Petrolatum-free
* Phthalate-free
eos lip balm is 95% organic, 100% natural, and paraben and petrolatum free. Packed with antioxidant-rich vitamin E, soothing shea butter and jojoba oil, eos keeps your lips moist, soft and sensationally smooth.
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I've been seeing a lot of my favorite Make-Up Guru's on YouTube utilize this product and when I saw it at Walgreen's I had to see what the fuss was about.
I usually don't gush over a product, but this stuff is A-freaking-mazing. I love the packaging, it's really unique. And the smell is pleasant, and application is flawless.
I highly encourage you to try this product, you won't be disappointed. Promise.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Changes
One of the many things I've been trying to work on is my inability to let go of grudges. Life has a funny way of teaching you things whether you like it or not.
The other day while browsing my news feed on Facebook I saw a status that really made me think. Who knew something so simple could totally blow your mind.
P e r s p e c t i v e.
The gal started the status with the question, "Are you the same person you were 5 years ago?" Of course it was a rhetorical question but in my mind I answered "No."
She then followed it up with the question, "So why is it so hard for us to believe that people cannot change?"
I thought about it.. and continued to do so.. and I had no answer. It's true, I am far from the person I was 5 years ago. Have been to hell and back, and am stronger than ever. So if someone has done me wrong, it might have been a lapse of judgment on their part that I never allowed them to correct.
From this point on, if there is an effort to make amends, they will be made if I truly believe the intentions are good. Life's too short to harbor such hate and resentment in your heart.. If GOD can forgive us for all of our sins, surly we can as well.
To become a better me.. I will work on not "deading" people from my life. Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me. Being more open-minded but not naive, don't get it twisted.. :)
Always room for improvement.. don't press rewind, just let it play.
The other day while browsing my news feed on Facebook I saw a status that really made me think. Who knew something so simple could totally blow your mind.
P e r s p e c t i v e.
The gal started the status with the question, "Are you the same person you were 5 years ago?" Of course it was a rhetorical question but in my mind I answered "No."
She then followed it up with the question, "So why is it so hard for us to believe that people cannot change?"
I thought about it.. and continued to do so.. and I had no answer. It's true, I am far from the person I was 5 years ago. Have been to hell and back, and am stronger than ever. So if someone has done me wrong, it might have been a lapse of judgment on their part that I never allowed them to correct.
From this point on, if there is an effort to make amends, they will be made if I truly believe the intentions are good. Life's too short to harbor such hate and resentment in your heart.. If GOD can forgive us for all of our sins, surly we can as well.
To become a better me.. I will work on not "deading" people from my life. Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me. Being more open-minded but not naive, don't get it twisted.. :)
Always room for improvement.. don't press rewind, just let it play.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Official Young Dro & Greg Street Present Dro Street
The long awaited semi-return of Young Dro is finally here.
Track list:
01. Young Dro - Greg Street Intro (0:30)
02. Young Dro - Freeze Me (Remix) (Feat. Rick Ross, Gucci Mane & T.I.) (5:31)
03. Young Dro - What Else (Skit) (0:17)
04. Young Dro - Crazy Love Affair (1:30)
05. Young Dro - Sittin' High (2:25)
06. Young Dro - Imma Boss (3:15)
07. Young Dro - Sucdroful (3:09)
08. Young Dro - Anybody Can Do That (Skit) (0:19)
09. Young Dro - Anybody Can Do That (3:53)
10. Young Dro - Dear Lord (3:18)
11. Young Dro - Greg Street Prayer (0:35)
12. Young Dro - Tell Em Don't Hate (2:58)
13. Young Dro - She Probably (3:00)
14. Young Dro - Interlude (0:24)
15. Young Dro - He Lyin' (3:07)
16. Young Dro - Toilet Bowl (3:27)
17. Young Dro - Who The F*ck Are Yall (4:09)
18. Young Dro - Interlude (0:27)
19. Young Dro - Really Wanna Ride Wit Us (2:11)
20. Young Dro - What Else (Skit 2) (0:24)
21. Young Dro - Buss It (Feat. Jose Guappo) (3:35)
22. Young Dro - Greg Street Outro (0:37)
lankage: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=1NGJECEO
Track list:
01. Young Dro - Greg Street Intro (0:30)
02. Young Dro - Freeze Me (Remix) (Feat. Rick Ross, Gucci Mane & T.I.) (5:31)
03. Young Dro - What Else (Skit) (0:17)
04. Young Dro - Crazy Love Affair (1:30)
05. Young Dro - Sittin' High (2:25)
06. Young Dro - Imma Boss (3:15)
07. Young Dro - Sucdroful (3:09)
08. Young Dro - Anybody Can Do That (Skit) (0:19)
09. Young Dro - Anybody Can Do That (3:53)
10. Young Dro - Dear Lord (3:18)
11. Young Dro - Greg Street Prayer (0:35)
12. Young Dro - Tell Em Don't Hate (2:58)
13. Young Dro - She Probably (3:00)
14. Young Dro - Interlude (0:24)
15. Young Dro - He Lyin' (3:07)
16. Young Dro - Toilet Bowl (3:27)
17. Young Dro - Who The F*ck Are Yall (4:09)
18. Young Dro - Interlude (0:27)
19. Young Dro - Really Wanna Ride Wit Us (2:11)
20. Young Dro - What Else (Skit 2) (0:24)
21. Young Dro - Buss It (Feat. Jose Guappo) (3:35)
22. Young Dro - Greg Street Outro (0:37)
lankage: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=1NGJECEO
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Studying philosophy has got me doing all kinds of critical thinking.
Inside, outside, above, and across the b o x.
I've noticed that the happier you are with yourself, the easier it is to be happy for others. Misery really does love company. And happiness? Well happiness loves company just as well, if not more.
Despite how busy I've willingly decided to make myself these next few months, I've realized that as long as I have a good balance of work, play, and pleasure I'll be okay come December.
Deciding to reward myself once the semester is over by going on a cruise. Aiming for a 4.0 this semester as well. Talk about goal setting. I've always liked challenges though. I think I can I think I can I think I can
Inside, outside, above, and across the b o x.
I've noticed that the happier you are with yourself, the easier it is to be happy for others. Misery really does love company. And happiness? Well happiness loves company just as well, if not more.
Despite how busy I've willingly decided to make myself these next few months, I've realized that as long as I have a good balance of work, play, and pleasure I'll be okay come December.
Deciding to reward myself once the semester is over by going on a cruise. Aiming for a 4.0 this semester as well. Talk about goal setting. I've always liked challenges though. I think I can I think I can I think I can
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
I n d e s c r i b a b l e
The feeling you give me:
indescribable although I’ll try.
The lovin you give me is better than any high.
My own strand of human marijuana,
Rehabilitation my heart denies,
Consuming my mind, body, and soul..
Continuously desired.
Unknown chambers in my heart,
You have come to occupy.
For better or for worse,
Love is crazy, but our hearts cant deny..
This crazy beautiful love we were destined to find.
*snaps*
indescribable although I’ll try.
The lovin you give me is better than any high.
My own strand of human marijuana,
Rehabilitation my heart denies,
Consuming my mind, body, and soul..
Continuously desired.
Unknown chambers in my heart,
You have come to occupy.
For better or for worse,
Love is crazy, but our hearts cant deny..
This crazy beautiful love we were destined to find.
*snaps*
Friday, August 27, 2010
f a i t h
It's always good just to have something to believe in...
I remember hitting rock bottom. I was lost. I was battered. My soul was bruised.
I remember nights where the only thing that would put me to bed were the swelling of my own eyes from the endless tears.
Through the tears I'd pray..pray for the strength to get me through this hardship in my life. For the courage to move forward and away from this rut I had put myself in.
I promised that if HE got me through this, I'd be forever grateful. I'd become a better individual and promise to slowly but surely restore myself to be better than before. the new and improved me.
After many tears and countless prayers.. one day I just stopped crying. I'd run out of tears, the pain was simply a hallow space in my heart, and I was ready to move forward.
Often times we pray only when we need God, but after my dwindling Faith got me through one of the hardest times of my life, my spiritual side has been stronger than ever.
Thankful for every new day I am blessed to see. Thankful for the opportunities presented for me, and thankful to still have my access to this crazy beautiful ride we call life.
LIVE . LOVE . LEARN
"Let all that you do be done in Love."
1 Corinthians 16:14
I remember hitting rock bottom. I was lost. I was battered. My soul was bruised.
I remember nights where the only thing that would put me to bed were the swelling of my own eyes from the endless tears.
Through the tears I'd pray..pray for the strength to get me through this hardship in my life. For the courage to move forward and away from this rut I had put myself in.
I promised that if HE got me through this, I'd be forever grateful. I'd become a better individual and promise to slowly but surely restore myself to be better than before. the new and improved me.
After many tears and countless prayers.. one day I just stopped crying. I'd run out of tears, the pain was simply a hallow space in my heart, and I was ready to move forward.
Often times we pray only when we need God, but after my dwindling Faith got me through one of the hardest times of my life, my spiritual side has been stronger than ever.
Thankful for every new day I am blessed to see. Thankful for the opportunities presented for me, and thankful to still have my access to this crazy beautiful ride we call life.
LIVE . LOVE . LEARN
"Let all that you do be done in Love."
1 Corinthians 16:14
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
Walk By Faith And Not By Sight
...easier said than done.
T.O.M (Time Of the Month) has got a gal extra homotional with a soda on the side.
I can't quite put a finger on how I'm feeling.... I just know I'm going to have eliminate a few things out of my life for my sanity's sake and pray, A LOT.
Usually I'm good at suppressing things that need to be, but I'm trying a different approach with life, and that's to embrace all feelings.. good, bad, uncomfortable, ugly, and wonderful.
Human nature and being reasonable don't get along very well.
I've got a lot of pent up aggression but it's not in me to act out just because I'm feeling a certain way. Self-control and prayer will get you far in life.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
T.O.M (Time Of the Month) has got a gal extra homotional with a soda on the side.
I can't quite put a finger on how I'm feeling.... I just know I'm going to have eliminate a few things out of my life for my sanity's sake and pray, A LOT.
Usually I'm good at suppressing things that need to be, but I'm trying a different approach with life, and that's to embrace all feelings.. good, bad, uncomfortable, ugly, and wonderful.
Human nature and being reasonable don't get along very well.
I've got a lot of pent up aggression but it's not in me to act out just because I'm feeling a certain way. Self-control and prayer will get you far in life.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
This morning is unlike any other Saturday morning for me.
For some odd reason I've been waking up extremely early lately. Anyone who knows me, knows I'm not a morning person, but as of lately, I have been.
They say stress wears you down, depression can have you extra fatigued, and I never really believed it until both of those elements were eliminated from my life. For the past almost 2 months, my worries have been removed, stress has been non-existent, and a smile has been on my face around the clock. I have him to thank. Although I've told myself to tread lightly, even doing that, has opened my eyes to many things that I was missing before. There's always room for improvement, and loving the fact.
This morning as I logged into Facebook I saw a handful of friends had birthday's. I went through the list, wishing each and everyone a very happy birthday until I got to the last name.
Time stopped for a second, I closed my eyes and breathed in a slowly. It's been almost a year since we lost him and not a day goes by that I don't think about him and miss him twice as much. My child-hood friend, my brother-from-another-mother, my now Angel. I know I had a hard time coping with his death.. and I forced myself not to cry.. but I'd continue to see him in my dreams, night after night, not sure what he was trying to tell me. After these series of dreams I realized what they all meant, he was in a better place, he was watching over us, and to let him go. I woke up at 3AM and cried, I mean really cried. All the pain I had been holding in.. was now streaming down my cheeks,across my lips and dampening my pillow. I've never dealt with Death very well, but losing a close friend caused me not only deal but embrace it, immediately.
Since he passed I've lived my life differently. Not taking advantage of any day that God blesses me to see. Even those days that seem impossible and intolerable to get through, I know he wouldn't bring me to it if he wouldn't bring me through it. Life truly is too short not to be happy.. and I tell myself this everyday. No matter what anyone else thinks, your life is yours and yours alone. Do what makes you happy and truly enjoy this gift we were given called Life.
For some odd reason I've been waking up extremely early lately. Anyone who knows me, knows I'm not a morning person, but as of lately, I have been.
They say stress wears you down, depression can have you extra fatigued, and I never really believed it until both of those elements were eliminated from my life. For the past almost 2 months, my worries have been removed, stress has been non-existent, and a smile has been on my face around the clock. I have him to thank. Although I've told myself to tread lightly, even doing that, has opened my eyes to many things that I was missing before. There's always room for improvement, and loving the fact.
This morning as I logged into Facebook I saw a handful of friends had birthday's. I went through the list, wishing each and everyone a very happy birthday until I got to the last name.
Time stopped for a second, I closed my eyes and breathed in a slowly. It's been almost a year since we lost him and not a day goes by that I don't think about him and miss him twice as much. My child-hood friend, my brother-from-another-mother, my now Angel. I know I had a hard time coping with his death.. and I forced myself not to cry.. but I'd continue to see him in my dreams, night after night, not sure what he was trying to tell me. After these series of dreams I realized what they all meant, he was in a better place, he was watching over us, and to let him go. I woke up at 3AM and cried, I mean really cried. All the pain I had been holding in.. was now streaming down my cheeks,across my lips and dampening my pillow. I've never dealt with Death very well, but losing a close friend caused me not only deal but embrace it, immediately.
Since he passed I've lived my life differently. Not taking advantage of any day that God blesses me to see. Even those days that seem impossible and intolerable to get through, I know he wouldn't bring me to it if he wouldn't bring me through it. Life truly is too short not to be happy.. and I tell myself this everyday. No matter what anyone else thinks, your life is yours and yours alone. Do what makes you happy and truly enjoy this gift we were given called Life.
Friday, August 13, 2010
Don't Press Rewind, Just Let It Play
“You can’t undo the past, but you can control it. Some people are frozen
in the injuries, insults, and lost opportunities of the past while life
passes them by. You have way too much going for you to do that. Instead,
examine your past, learn the lessons, chart out a bright future, and start
moving toward it with confidence. “
in the injuries, insults, and lost opportunities of the past while life
passes them by. You have way too much going for you to do that. Instead,
examine your past, learn the lessons, chart out a bright future, and start
moving toward it with confidence. “
Monday, August 9, 2010
SALADS!
I've been on a health kick lately and have encountered two of the most delicious salad's I've ever had in life.
First one is from El Pasaeo Restaurant. It's called the Shrimp Ajo Salad.
Ingredients: Seasoned Shrimp sautéed in garlic Butter Sauce served on a bed of Romaine lettuce with avocado slices and tomato wedges topped with Monterey Jack cheese.
I usually get it with a vinaigrette.. to die for.
2nd up: Strawberry Poppyseed & Chicken Salad
Ingredients: All-natural, antibiotic-free chicken, romaine, strawberries, blueberries, pineapple, Mandarin oranges, pecans & reduced sugar, fat-free poppyseed dressing.
Sorry for not having visuals.. will work on that soon..
but I encourage anybody to pleaaaase go out and try them :)
First one is from El Pasaeo Restaurant. It's called the Shrimp Ajo Salad.
Ingredients: Seasoned Shrimp sautéed in garlic Butter Sauce served on a bed of Romaine lettuce with avocado slices and tomato wedges topped with Monterey Jack cheese.
I usually get it with a vinaigrette.. to die for.
2nd up: Strawberry Poppyseed & Chicken Salad
Ingredients: All-natural, antibiotic-free chicken, romaine, strawberries, blueberries, pineapple, Mandarin oranges, pecans & reduced sugar, fat-free poppyseed dressing.
Sorry for not having visuals.. will work on that soon..
but I encourage anybody to pleaaaase go out and try them :)
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Great Quote..
"i am the author of my life, unfortunatley im writing in pen so i cant erase my mistakes, have no regrets, live life now before its too late." - Ricky Prasasouk
funny how you can find a little wisdom via facebook.
have a blessed week folks.
funny how you can find a little wisdom via facebook.
have a blessed week folks.
Monday, August 2, 2010
H U M B L E
"Humble yourself and let it go. And "IT" can be anything you want it to be. (A relationship, a bad habit, a sin, etc.)"
22 years on this earth and it's safe to say I'm content with where I am emotionally, physically, and mentally.
The gym and I have been very close so far this year.. I feel funny if I don't incorporate it into my life at least 3 times a week.. so that's a plus.
I just finished the 2nd book in the True Blood Series, I can say I'm addicted. Have yet to watch the actual shows, I'll probably start after I finish the series because I heard they are a bit different.
I've noticed that being humble gets you a lot further in life than being any other way. Always room for improvement.. all smiles at the route my life is going.
Blessed blessed blessed.
<3
22 years on this earth and it's safe to say I'm content with where I am emotionally, physically, and mentally.
The gym and I have been very close so far this year.. I feel funny if I don't incorporate it into my life at least 3 times a week.. so that's a plus.
I just finished the 2nd book in the True Blood Series, I can say I'm addicted. Have yet to watch the actual shows, I'll probably start after I finish the series because I heard they are a bit different.
I've noticed that being humble gets you a lot further in life than being any other way. Always room for improvement.. all smiles at the route my life is going.
Blessed blessed blessed.
<3
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
WHAT LOVE IS
"Every womanizer, every player, every guy juggling three broads at the same time is only doing so out of fear. Fear of being crushed by a woman. Cause one day, back in the day, they weren't a 'player'- they liked one girl, just one. And they gave it up to her because they were little romantics back then. And they gave it up to the girl they loved, and what happened, they got rocked, they got crushed or they got destroyed, they got cheated on, or laughed at, or something. And when they are finished picking up all the little pieces of what was once they're heart, they all, every single one of them, made a vow to never give it up again. But now we are talking about the real bastards here, the ones who break heart occupationally, cuz believe it or not, originally those cats were the most beautiful, and the most romantic of them all, and you know what happened, those are the ones who got hurt worst of all. You never get over it, you recover, but you never get over it. And you know what happened, when they all recovered, you know what they all said, they all said "O.K., I see, Alright. If that's how its gonna be, I can play that way too." So you see we are all responsible for the cycle of the vicious circle."
- W H A T L O V E I S -
- W H A T L O V E I S -
Saturday, July 3, 2010
REMEMBER WHEN..
I know I'm not incredibly old, but I know times have definitely changed. While laying in bed last night, watching a movie from my laptop and communicating via text, I remember not even 10 years ago, things were much more different.
Remember the days of the AOL/AIM chatrooms? You'd stay up all night on your mamas' 56k chatting away.. taking 30 minutes to download your favorite song, and getting excited at the sound of the specialized AIM alert you had set for your boo once they had signed on.
I remember sitting up in the uncomfortable computer chair.. chatting into the whee hours of the night (since texting had not been hawt yet), and you wouldn't dare let your house phone ring that late. Or, you'd try to time it perfectly, call the weather number and wait for the call to come in and click over. Those were the days.
I think the progression of technology and how we communicate has hindered a lot of people's ability to verbally communicate. They can go on forever via text or IM.. get them infront of you and they're a deer caught in headlights. Ironic isn't it?
Crazy how times have changed. I've got my parents hip to texting, I'm sure it's a whole new world to them. I can only imagine the communication outlet's my future kids will have.
Remember the days of the AOL/AIM chatrooms? You'd stay up all night on your mamas' 56k chatting away.. taking 30 minutes to download your favorite song, and getting excited at the sound of the specialized AIM alert you had set for your boo once they had signed on.
I remember sitting up in the uncomfortable computer chair.. chatting into the whee hours of the night (since texting had not been hawt yet), and you wouldn't dare let your house phone ring that late. Or, you'd try to time it perfectly, call the weather number and wait for the call to come in and click over. Those were the days.
I think the progression of technology and how we communicate has hindered a lot of people's ability to verbally communicate. They can go on forever via text or IM.. get them infront of you and they're a deer caught in headlights. Ironic isn't it?
Crazy how times have changed. I've got my parents hip to texting, I'm sure it's a whole new world to them. I can only imagine the communication outlet's my future kids will have.
REMEMBER WHEN...
I AM REMEMBERING LOVE
It is the color of light
the shape of sound high in the evergreens
it lies suspended in hills
a blue line in a red sky
I am looking at sound
I'm hearing the brightness of high bluffs and almond trees
I am tasting the wilderness of lakes, rivers, and streams
caught in an angle of song
I am remembering water that glows in the dawn
the motion tumbled in earth
life hidden in mounds
I am dancing a bright beam of life
I am, remembering love.
- The Love Jones
the shape of sound high in the evergreens
it lies suspended in hills
a blue line in a red sky
I am looking at sound
I'm hearing the brightness of high bluffs and almond trees
I am tasting the wilderness of lakes, rivers, and streams
caught in an angle of song
I am remembering water that glows in the dawn
the motion tumbled in earth
life hidden in mounds
I am dancing a bright beam of life
I am, remembering love.
- The Love Jones
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
THE ROOTS - DEAR GOOD 2.0
The Roots Album entitled 'How I Got Over' is truly a work of art. As much garbage we have coming out of the music industry, album's like this restore my faith in hip-hop and reminds me why I fell in love with it to begin with.
Young men, pause your pretty boy swag, young women, quit puttin ya pussy on their side burns.. and get acquainted with real music.
Here's the music video to 'Dear God 2.0'
Dear God from Okayplayer on Vimeo.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Letting Go
"..letting go isn't about winning or losing, to let go isn't to forget, not to think about it or ignore, it doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret, it's not about pride or how you appear, it's not obsessing or dwelling over the past, letting go isn't blocking memories, or thinkin' sad thoughts, it's not giving in or giving up, it's not about loss or defeat, to let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome and move on, it's about having an open mind and confidence in the future, it's accepting, learning, experiencing, and growing, to ...be thankful for experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow, it's all about all that you had, all you have, and all that you will soon gain...letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving, its growing up, to let go is to open a door, and to clear a path, and to set yourself free...life is too short to be mad at the world or hold grudges..time is free, but it's priceless, you can't own it, but you can use it, once you've lost it, you can never get it back...so say whats on your mind and do what makes you happy...live laugh and love...judgments prevent us from seeing the good that lies beyond appearances, we can never really judge the life of others because each person only knows their own pain or experiences, it is one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it is another to think that yours is the only path.."
- C. Garcia
- C. Garcia
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
P.U.S.H
I know you all have heard me speak about strengthening my spiritual side this year. I’ve done more praying this year than I probably have my entire 21, almost 22 years, of existence.
I have to put faith that everything happens for a reason. Life isn’t easy, and for each hardship, comes a lesson learned. Slowly but surely things are looking up, but there’s still a lot of work to achieve all my goals.
I’m so grateful for all the opportunities I’ve been granted this year. I’m trying my best not to take advantage of any blessings that are coming my way, but I have to be honest with myself.. I can’t accept them all. That would be greedy of me; would it not?
Until then, I’ll continue to P.U.S.H.
PRAY UNTIL SOMETHING HAPPENS
I have to put faith that everything happens for a reason. Life isn’t easy, and for each hardship, comes a lesson learned. Slowly but surely things are looking up, but there’s still a lot of work to achieve all my goals.
I’m so grateful for all the opportunities I’ve been granted this year. I’m trying my best not to take advantage of any blessings that are coming my way, but I have to be honest with myself.. I can’t accept them all. That would be greedy of me; would it not?
Until then, I’ll continue to P.U.S.H.
PRAY UNTIL SOMETHING HAPPENS
Thursday, June 10, 2010
The human race regardless of how far we've evolved, really has not changed. The saying "History repeats itself," still stands true year after year, and all that really changes is our way of living with the tactile things in our life.
But what about those things in which we cannot obtain with money? Two of the most important things in life that society desires is LOVE, immediately after that, would be POWER.
Individuals are constantly competing to be "the best", to hold all the "power" that they possibly can in their position, and are willing to do almost anything to get it.
You constantly hear stories of crime, deceit, betrayal, and scandal. You think to yourself, what could possibly drive anyone to willingly disregard their morals? Power.
But when and where do we draw the line? How far do our morals and beliefs have to be pushed?
The lust for power is overwhelming especially for those who have constantly yearned for it. It's something many have dreamed about and only a few have been able to achieve.
I've come to conclude that if everyone were equal we'd be a very boring society. Diversity is what makes us. Power comes to those who are destined for it. So keep one thing in mind, everything that shall be, shall be.
But what about those things in which we cannot obtain with money? Two of the most important things in life that society desires is LOVE, immediately after that, would be POWER.
Individuals are constantly competing to be "the best", to hold all the "power" that they possibly can in their position, and are willing to do almost anything to get it.
You constantly hear stories of crime, deceit, betrayal, and scandal. You think to yourself, what could possibly drive anyone to willingly disregard their morals? Power.
But when and where do we draw the line? How far do our morals and beliefs have to be pushed?
The lust for power is overwhelming especially for those who have constantly yearned for it. It's something many have dreamed about and only a few have been able to achieve.
I've come to conclude that if everyone were equal we'd be a very boring society. Diversity is what makes us. Power comes to those who are destined for it. So keep one thing in mind, everything that shall be, shall be.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Perceptions
I don't know if it's just me, but I have a strong liking for in-depth conversations. I like to think outside of the box, see things that might have been right under my nose, and really have an "open-mind" about anything and everything.
In-depth conversations compare to a mental-sex-session for me.
What I've noticed is that you usually get the best conversation from the people you'd least expect. Within a group of friends you more than likely have the same opinions about a lot of general things.
Find a total stranger that could be your complete opposite and be taken for a wild ride.
I've never been too keen on talking to strangers but I might need to do it more often. Perhaps my desire for these kinds of conversations has been fed by my activity on a message board that I've been an active member on for the past 2 years. So many different folks from all over the world.. All with a different opinion. Although you may not agree with it, you can definitely respect it.. To each his own.
I'm in one of those moods.. Feel like cookin a good meal, havin a drink or two, and gettin' stimulated; mentally.
In-depth conversations compare to a mental-sex-session for me.
What I've noticed is that you usually get the best conversation from the people you'd least expect. Within a group of friends you more than likely have the same opinions about a lot of general things.
Find a total stranger that could be your complete opposite and be taken for a wild ride.
I've never been too keen on talking to strangers but I might need to do it more often. Perhaps my desire for these kinds of conversations has been fed by my activity on a message board that I've been an active member on for the past 2 years. So many different folks from all over the world.. All with a different opinion. Although you may not agree with it, you can definitely respect it.. To each his own.
I'm in one of those moods.. Feel like cookin a good meal, havin a drink or two, and gettin' stimulated; mentally.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
A Woman's Love
Nothing on this planet can compare with a woman’s
Love—it is kind and compassionate, patient and nurturing,
generous and sweet and unconditional. Pure.
If you are her man, she will walk on water and through a
mountain for you, too, no matter how you’ve acted out, no
matter what crazy thing you’ve done, no matter the time or
demand. If you are her man, she will talk to you until there just
aren’t any more words left to say, encourage you when you’re
at rock bottom and think there just isn’t any way out, hold you
in her arms when you’re sick, and laugh with you when you’re
up. And if you’re her man and that woman loves you—I mean
really loves you?—she will shine you up when you’re dusty,
encourage you when you’re down, defend you even when she’s
not so sure you were right, and hang on your every word, even
when you’re not saying anything worth listening to. And no
matter what you do, no matter how many times her friends say
you’re no good, no matter how many times you slam the door
on the relationship, she will give you her very best and then
some, and keep right on trying to win over your heart, even
when you act like everything she’s done to convince you she’s
The One just isn’t good enough.
That’s a woman’s love—it stands the test of time, logic, and
all circumstance.
~ Steve Harvey
Love—it is kind and compassionate, patient and nurturing,
generous and sweet and unconditional. Pure.
If you are her man, she will walk on water and through a
mountain for you, too, no matter how you’ve acted out, no
matter what crazy thing you’ve done, no matter the time or
demand. If you are her man, she will talk to you until there just
aren’t any more words left to say, encourage you when you’re
at rock bottom and think there just isn’t any way out, hold you
in her arms when you’re sick, and laugh with you when you’re
up. And if you’re her man and that woman loves you—I mean
really loves you?—she will shine you up when you’re dusty,
encourage you when you’re down, defend you even when she’s
not so sure you were right, and hang on your every word, even
when you’re not saying anything worth listening to. And no
matter what you do, no matter how many times her friends say
you’re no good, no matter how many times you slam the door
on the relationship, she will give you her very best and then
some, and keep right on trying to win over your heart, even
when you act like everything she’s done to convince you she’s
The One just isn’t good enough.
That’s a woman’s love—it stands the test of time, logic, and
all circumstance.
~ Steve Harvey
Thursday, May 13, 2010
When The Music Hits..
you feel no pain..
One of my favorite aspiring musicians on Youtube is Bridget Hermano.
Check out her Channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/bri3jet
I don't have a favorite video.. they're all amazing.
One of my favorite aspiring musicians on Youtube is Bridget Hermano.
Check out her Channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/bri3jet
I don't have a favorite video.. they're all amazing.
Monday, May 10, 2010
onions and shit
You know how people are sometimes compared to onions? They have multiple layers and once you finally get to the core, the heart, the foundation of it, you've got to the best part?
That's how I am. Sometimes I forget how complicated and difficult I can be to those who are near and dear to me. I have layers upon layers, but once you're in..you're in there like swimwear.
I've been more in touch with the core part of my emotions a lot lately. It's a place I never liked to visit often because I was forced to be real with myself. No more layers, it just was, what it was.
I've been more open lately, but I still catch myself defensive as hell sometimes. My past has made me who I am today but I need to remember not to let it effect my present, and most importantly my future. I told myself this year I was going to work on a better me. I've been strengthening my spiritual side, slowly but surely. I've learned to forgive those who have wronged me, to not let offense burden my mind and my heart.. but those emotional scars run a lot deeper than you may think sometimes. I have to catch myself sometimes because I have to remember who I'm talking to. They say nine times out of ten when you and your significant other are going at it.. the rage.. the words.. all that isn't really directed at them.. it's at the ex.. the pain.. the denial.. I've learned to be a lot more patient.. because I too was incredibly naive not too long ago. It took something huge for me to finally open my eyes.. but I just wish that I had someone who was patient enough with me.. but you live and you learn. Praying for the strength and patience to steady work on a better me. Almost half a year under our belt, and still have time to go. Change doesn't come in a day.. but as long as my efforts are consistent.. I have faith it will all work out for the best.
That's how I am. Sometimes I forget how complicated and difficult I can be to those who are near and dear to me. I have layers upon layers, but once you're in..you're in there like swimwear.
I've been more in touch with the core part of my emotions a lot lately. It's a place I never liked to visit often because I was forced to be real with myself. No more layers, it just was, what it was.
I've been more open lately, but I still catch myself defensive as hell sometimes. My past has made me who I am today but I need to remember not to let it effect my present, and most importantly my future. I told myself this year I was going to work on a better me. I've been strengthening my spiritual side, slowly but surely. I've learned to forgive those who have wronged me, to not let offense burden my mind and my heart.. but those emotional scars run a lot deeper than you may think sometimes. I have to catch myself sometimes because I have to remember who I'm talking to. They say nine times out of ten when you and your significant other are going at it.. the rage.. the words.. all that isn't really directed at them.. it's at the ex.. the pain.. the denial.. I've learned to be a lot more patient.. because I too was incredibly naive not too long ago. It took something huge for me to finally open my eyes.. but I just wish that I had someone who was patient enough with me.. but you live and you learn. Praying for the strength and patience to steady work on a better me. Almost half a year under our belt, and still have time to go. Change doesn't come in a day.. but as long as my efforts are consistent.. I have faith it will all work out for the best.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Feeling the love.
I'm not sure if it's just me, but as of lately.. I'll say within the past year.. I've been feeling a lot more love than ever before.
A lot of times when you're content with your life, and happy with who you are inside and out, other people tend to do the same.
It took me a while to get here, but I can honestly say that I'm happy that I am.
Granted I have issues just like the next person, I've really been strengthening my spiritual side and it's made me the person I've been striving to be for a long time. I use to have a lot insecurities, but after plenty of trial and error, I've learned how to fully embrace life and love it for everything it is. The good, the bad, and the ugly.
Change doesn't come in a day, so not only has my patience been strengthened but so has my faith.
loving me. loving you. loving it.
A lot of times when you're content with your life, and happy with who you are inside and out, other people tend to do the same.
It took me a while to get here, but I can honestly say that I'm happy that I am.
Granted I have issues just like the next person, I've really been strengthening my spiritual side and it's made me the person I've been striving to be for a long time. I use to have a lot insecurities, but after plenty of trial and error, I've learned how to fully embrace life and love it for everything it is. The good, the bad, and the ugly.
Change doesn't come in a day, so not only has my patience been strengthened but so has my faith.
loving me. loving you. loving it.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
EXPLOSIVE.
GOING TO START POSTING SONGS DAILY THAT I'M FEELIN.
TODAY'S PIECE OF HIP HOP HEAVEN: XV - XPLOSIVE .. EMBRACE THE UP AND COMING ARTISTS WITH ACTUAL TALENT.. SAW DUDE IN CONCERT AND HE'S DEFINITELY A FORCE TO BE RECKONED WITH.
TODAY'S PIECE OF HIP HOP HEAVEN: XV - XPLOSIVE .. EMBRACE THE UP AND COMING ARTISTS WITH ACTUAL TALENT.. SAW DUDE IN CONCERT AND HE'S DEFINITELY A FORCE TO BE RECKONED WITH.
Monday, April 26, 2010
UNIVERSAL TRUTHS
1. I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.
2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.
3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.
4. There is great need for a sarcasm font.
5. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?
6. Was learning cursive really necessary?
7. Map Quest really needs to start their directions on #5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.
8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.
9. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.
10. Bad decisions make good stories.
11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day.
12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after Blue Ray? I don't want to have to restart my collection...again.
13. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten-page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.
14. "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this - ever.
15. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello?!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What did you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?
16. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.
17. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.
18. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.
19. I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lite than Kay.
20. I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.
21. Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the heck was going on when I first saw it.
22. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.
23. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to finish a text.
24. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.
25. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear or understand a word they said?
26. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars team up to prevent an ass from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers and sisters!
27. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever..
28. Is it just me or do high school kids get dumber & dumber every year?
29. There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.
30. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers.
31. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.
32. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, finding their cell phone, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I'd bet my behind everyone can find and push the snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time, every time!
2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.
3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.
4. There is great need for a sarcasm font.
5. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?
6. Was learning cursive really necessary?
7. Map Quest really needs to start their directions on #5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.
8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.
9. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.
10. Bad decisions make good stories.
11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day.
12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after Blue Ray? I don't want to have to restart my collection...again.
13. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten-page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.
14. "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this - ever.
15. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello?!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What did you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?
16. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.
17. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.
18. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.
19. I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lite than Kay.
20. I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.
21. Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the heck was going on when I first saw it.
22. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.
23. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to finish a text.
24. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.
25. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear or understand a word they said?
26. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars team up to prevent an ass from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers and sisters!
27. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever..
28. Is it just me or do high school kids get dumber & dumber every year?
29. There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.
30. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers.
31. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.
32. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, finding their cell phone, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I'd bet my behind everyone can find and push the snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time, every time!
Facebook Is the Devil.
Social networking is making connecting people easier than it's ever been. This is great for those in business, club promoters, stalking old flames, or for those who have trouble interacting with people in real life and whose life revolve around the innanet, yeah I said innanet.
So in the 21 years I've been breathing, I've been an active member of Myspace, friendster, twitter, and Facebook. 2 of which have been deleted, the other 2 are still active.
I'm personally enjoying twitter a lot. Random thoughts of many different folks all conveniently organized for you to read and reply. No picture whoring, no chat feature, you just enjoy it for what it is.
Facebook on the other hand, is the devil. I know you've heard this saying before, and you've also heard that it ruins relationships. Facebook tells everyone and anyone what you've done, what you're doing, public wall posts, and what you're going to do. A stalkers dream.
A current aggrivation of mine is texting folks.. yet you don't get a reply. Sign on to facebook, and by golly look who's on? Peoples' priorities are starting to get seriously jacked. Correct me if I'm wrong, but I thought cell phone's were more personal? I'll twiddle my thumbs while you come up with a valid explanation as to why you feel your social network needs exceed your personal ones. Any day now.
With that being said, I'll probably be closing my facebook account within the next week. Going to allow myself as well as others time to gather all appropriate contact information to reach me once I remove myself from the facebook world.
Feel free to leave your AIM/SKYPE names as well as blogsites.
So in the 21 years I've been breathing, I've been an active member of Myspace, friendster, twitter, and Facebook. 2 of which have been deleted, the other 2 are still active.
I'm personally enjoying twitter a lot. Random thoughts of many different folks all conveniently organized for you to read and reply. No picture whoring, no chat feature, you just enjoy it for what it is.
Facebook on the other hand, is the devil. I know you've heard this saying before, and you've also heard that it ruins relationships. Facebook tells everyone and anyone what you've done, what you're doing, public wall posts, and what you're going to do. A stalkers dream.
A current aggrivation of mine is texting folks.. yet you don't get a reply. Sign on to facebook, and by golly look who's on? Peoples' priorities are starting to get seriously jacked. Correct me if I'm wrong, but I thought cell phone's were more personal? I'll twiddle my thumbs while you come up with a valid explanation as to why you feel your social network needs exceed your personal ones. Any day now.
With that being said, I'll probably be closing my facebook account within the next week. Going to allow myself as well as others time to gather all appropriate contact information to reach me once I remove myself from the facebook world.
Feel free to leave your AIM/SKYPE names as well as blogsites.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Muzak
After seeing them in concert a few weeks ago, I'm constantly bumpin' this song.
enjoy your Saturday lovelies.
enjoy your Saturday lovelies.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Relationships.
For most individuals, they want to one day have that ideal relationship. That one person they can call their other half, perhaps even their better half.
Relationships go through cycles.
The beginning is filled with constant smiles, butterflies, hand holding, and unconditional affection.
Once you get comfortable around one another, most relationships begin to settle into their own niche.
What people fail to realize is that relationships aren't as easy as they are cracked up to be. They take an honest and equal effort on both parts for full functionality. People start slacking with the affection, the kind words often go unheard for a longer period of time than they should.. and the relationship begins to unravel.
Love is a living thing. Just like any living thing it has its essential needs.. love, respect, and most importantly attention. Without these 3 things, relationships become weak and eventually perish.
What I've learned throughout the years is that love is not for the selfish. Although they are often times granted the rare opportunity that many strive for in their lifetime, it's that much better if it's a mutual act.
Each relationship is different, but then one you should value the most, is your own.
Love it, respect it, and most importantly embrace it, for everything that it is and will ever be.
Relationships go through cycles.
The beginning is filled with constant smiles, butterflies, hand holding, and unconditional affection.
Once you get comfortable around one another, most relationships begin to settle into their own niche.
What people fail to realize is that relationships aren't as easy as they are cracked up to be. They take an honest and equal effort on both parts for full functionality. People start slacking with the affection, the kind words often go unheard for a longer period of time than they should.. and the relationship begins to unravel.
Love is a living thing. Just like any living thing it has its essential needs.. love, respect, and most importantly attention. Without these 3 things, relationships become weak and eventually perish.
What I've learned throughout the years is that love is not for the selfish. Although they are often times granted the rare opportunity that many strive for in their lifetime, it's that much better if it's a mutual act.
Each relationship is different, but then one you should value the most, is your own.
Love it, respect it, and most importantly embrace it, for everything that it is and will ever be.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Weezy Writes A Letter To His Fans
Whether you love him or hate him, you know Dwayne Carter II better known as Lil Wayne. He's topped the charts for months upon months and has an undeniable "swagger" that cannot be replicated or denied. His recent incarceration has left many of his fans heartbroken and have lead them to write to him. As a Weezy fan, I personally appreciate him as a man and an artist this much more after seeing this:
During my prison stint, I want my fans to know I love you. I want all of you to know that I appreciate all the mail I get, and this is my way of saying thank you. The F is for Family, Friends, and Fans.
Love. Live. Life. Proceed. Progress. That’s who I am and who I’ll always be. You see, we’re all living on borrowed time, so I’m not worried about this situation. Life happens quick. The more time you spend contemplating what you should have done…you lose valuable time planning what you can and will do. Trying to tear down the past prohibits you from building up your future. So for my time here, my physical will be confined to the yard. My love and my spirit, however, know no boundaries.
I’m in good spirits man, for real. My kids
race through my mind all day. They know they were created with love, so love is how their life will be defined. I just hope my love and adoration for them provides a temporary bandage on a wound I unknowingly inflicted on them.
Real soon, you can catch me blogging for ESPN again thank you espn for not letting my passion for sports perish. I work out a lot because it helps pass the time. I read the Bible everyday. Jail didn’t make me find God, He’s always been there. They can lock me up, but my spirit and my love can never be confined to prison walls.
But this isn’t all about me, you are the reason for this letter. It’s because of you Rebirth went gold when critics aborted it. It’s because of you Young Money is and will always be a movement. If the weight of the world is on your shoulders, I beg of you, place it on mine. That’s the least I could do for you, after all you have sacrificed for me. If I could, I’d write each one of you back. Because of this, my team and I have created a website where you can view my letters. Each week I’ll answer as many questions as I possibly can.
Mia Edwards (Southern California) – I wish you nothing but the best for you. Earning your Masters in Library and Information Science is beautiful. I’ll keep you in mind whenever I decide to do an autobiography on my life.
Kelly Holloman (Brooklyn) – I still remember your. You have a great spirit. Thank you for the words and being a real fan. I love you.
Nurris Terrero (New York) – Your letter was so thoughtful and sincere. The way you worded everything left me in awe. Please send suggestions on books I should read. I look forward to checking them out.
For real, this will be the best way we can communicate for the coming months. The same way yall miss me, I miss yall, only 100 times more. To those who hate. Hate is only a form love that hasn’t found a way to express itself logically. Keep sending the letters and I promise keep responding. Thank YOU, thank YOU, thank YOU. No matter what they do to erase me, my love for you will always be permanent. Remember that. Take care. God bless.
Give me the patience that I need
To keep my piece of mind,
And with life’s cares, I hope, Dear God,
Some happiness to find.
Give me the courage to face life`s trials
and not to from troubles run.
let me keep this thought in mind.
“Thy Will,” not “Mine,” be done.
- “Pray”
He'll be answering letters and writing to his general fan base every week at http://www.weezythanxyou.com
During my prison stint, I want my fans to know I love you. I want all of you to know that I appreciate all the mail I get, and this is my way of saying thank you. The F is for Family, Friends, and Fans.
Love. Live. Life. Proceed. Progress. That’s who I am and who I’ll always be. You see, we’re all living on borrowed time, so I’m not worried about this situation. Life happens quick. The more time you spend contemplating what you should have done…you lose valuable time planning what you can and will do. Trying to tear down the past prohibits you from building up your future. So for my time here, my physical will be confined to the yard. My love and my spirit, however, know no boundaries.
I’m in good spirits man, for real. My kids
race through my mind all day. They know they were created with love, so love is how their life will be defined. I just hope my love and adoration for them provides a temporary bandage on a wound I unknowingly inflicted on them.
Real soon, you can catch me blogging for ESPN again thank you espn for not letting my passion for sports perish. I work out a lot because it helps pass the time. I read the Bible everyday. Jail didn’t make me find God, He’s always been there. They can lock me up, but my spirit and my love can never be confined to prison walls.
But this isn’t all about me, you are the reason for this letter. It’s because of you Rebirth went gold when critics aborted it. It’s because of you Young Money is and will always be a movement. If the weight of the world is on your shoulders, I beg of you, place it on mine. That’s the least I could do for you, after all you have sacrificed for me. If I could, I’d write each one of you back. Because of this, my team and I have created a website where you can view my letters. Each week I’ll answer as many questions as I possibly can.
Mia Edwards (Southern California) – I wish you nothing but the best for you. Earning your Masters in Library and Information Science is beautiful. I’ll keep you in mind whenever I decide to do an autobiography on my life.
Kelly Holloman (Brooklyn) – I still remember your. You have a great spirit. Thank you for the words and being a real fan. I love you.
Nurris Terrero (New York) – Your letter was so thoughtful and sincere. The way you worded everything left me in awe. Please send suggestions on books I should read. I look forward to checking them out.
For real, this will be the best way we can communicate for the coming months. The same way yall miss me, I miss yall, only 100 times more. To those who hate. Hate is only a form love that hasn’t found a way to express itself logically. Keep sending the letters and I promise keep responding. Thank YOU, thank YOU, thank YOU. No matter what they do to erase me, my love for you will always be permanent. Remember that. Take care. God bless.
Give me the patience that I need
To keep my piece of mind,
And with life’s cares, I hope, Dear God,
Some happiness to find.
Give me the courage to face life`s trials
and not to from troubles run.
let me keep this thought in mind.
“Thy Will,” not “Mine,” be done.
- “Pray”
He'll be answering letters and writing to his general fan base every week at http://www.weezythanxyou.com
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Gimime 30
The other night I was laying in bed, restless as always, and got to thinking about life, surprise surprise...
When I'm forced to face certain challenges in my life, I've always found a way to come out on the other side either benefiting from my move or remaining unscathed. For those who don't know, I'm a darn good domino player. I wasn't always good, but I got there eventually. Trial and Error.
Just like in life, the beginner or naive individual always goes for fast and easy money, that instant gratification.
Lesson learned : not all money is good money.
After getting house after house scored on me, and after learning lesson after lesson, I've come to grasp the reality of being more strategic with my moves, my actions, myself.
Not only did I take a few good steps back to observe my life (i.e. the board), I learned to be very aware of what's around me (what's on the board), the actions of others (the plays your opponents make), and my potential outcome (scorin that rare but famous 30 on dem hoes, lol).
But most importantly I learned to always put me first, because without me, I won't be able to do for anyone else (such as family, friends, significant other, or domino partner) no matter how much I want to. So if I see that I won't quite benefit from anything around me, I always take care of me. What most of my opponents learn quickly about me is I always, and let me repeat this, always, keep domino once I have it.
Life is like a game of dominos: you'll always start with big 6, but everything after that- your actions, others actions, and the inevitable knocks - will play out according to what you do and how you do it.
Therefore, live freely but cautiously and if you're lucky, you'll hit that 30 on dem hoes.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Digital Dependency: Guilty or Innocent?
Times are a-changing, no one can deny that. Within the past 21 years of my life I've seen everything from beepers, two-ways, cell phones with the plain green backlight, and trust me if you had one of the above, you thought you were da shit.
Now I have a cell phone that's beyond anything I could ever imagine 10 years ago. I can have up to TEN emails linked to it, has my facebook chat, AIM, blackberry messenger, text messags, web browser, AND last but not least serves its original purpose of being a phone to actually place calls. Who woulda thought?
I'll be the first to admit I've become entirely too dependent on my Blackberry. When I say dependent, I'm sayin: replace it same day if it's broken, leaving it within ear shot while in the shower, chargers at work, car, and the house. It's a sickness, I know. I think what helps me cope with my madness is that I'm not the only crackberry addict in this world. So for those still trying to deny their addiction, it's okay, we loves ya. #teamblackberry
Now I have a cell phone that's beyond anything I could ever imagine 10 years ago. I can have up to TEN emails linked to it, has my facebook chat, AIM, blackberry messenger, text messags, web browser, AND last but not least serves its original purpose of being a phone to actually place calls. Who woulda thought?
I'll be the first to admit I've become entirely too dependent on my Blackberry. When I say dependent, I'm sayin: replace it same day if it's broken, leaving it within ear shot while in the shower, chargers at work, car, and the house. It's a sickness, I know. I think what helps me cope with my madness is that I'm not the only crackberry addict in this world. So for those still trying to deny their addiction, it's okay, we loves ya. #teamblackberry
c'est moi
Finally got around to making a new blog strictly for entertainment purposes. For new followers, old followers, and those who happened to stumble here.. get ready for a 20-something-aspiring-female-journalists overly organized thoughts on life, love, and everything else along the way.
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