This morning is unlike any other Saturday morning for me.

For some odd reason I've been waking up extremely early lately. Anyone who knows me, knows I'm not a morning person, but as of lately, I have been.

They say stress wears you down, depression can have you extra fatigued, and I never really believed it until both of those elements were eliminated from my life. For the past almost 2 months, my worries have been removed, stress has been non-existent, and a smile has been on my face around the clock. I have him to thank. Although I've told myself to tread lightly, even doing that, has opened my eyes to many things that I was missing before. There's always room for improvement, and loving the fact.

This morning as I logged into Facebook I saw a handful of friends had birthday's. I went through the list, wishing each and everyone a very happy birthday until I got to the last name.

Time stopped for a second, I closed my eyes and breathed in a slowly. It's been almost a year since we lost him and not a day goes by that I don't think about him and miss him twice as much. My child-hood friend, my brother-from-another-mother, my now Angel. I know I had a hard time coping with his death.. and I forced myself not to cry.. but I'd continue to see him in my dreams, night after night, not sure what he was trying to tell me. After these series of dreams I realized what they all meant, he was in a better place, he was watching over us, and to let him go. I woke up at 3AM and cried, I mean really cried. All the pain I had been holding in.. was now streaming down my cheeks,across my lips and dampening my pillow. I've never dealt with Death very well, but losing a close friend caused me not only deal but embrace it, immediately.

Since he passed I've lived my life differently. Not taking advantage of any day that God blesses me to see. Even those days that seem impossible and intolerable to get through, I know he wouldn't bring me to it if he wouldn't bring me through it. Life truly is too short not to be happy.. and I tell myself this everyday. No matter what anyone else thinks, your life is yours and yours alone. Do what makes you happy and truly enjoy this gift we were given called Life.