I n d e s c r i b a b l e

The feeling you give me:
indescribable although I’ll try.
The lovin you give me is better than any high.
My own strand of human marijuana,
Rehabilitation my heart denies,
Consuming my mind, body, and soul..
Continuously desired.
Unknown chambers in my heart,
You have come to occupy.
For better or for worse,
Love is crazy, but our hearts cant deny..
This crazy beautiful love we were destined to find.


*snaps*

f a i t h

It's always good just to have something to believe in...

I remember hitting rock bottom. I was lost. I was battered. My soul was bruised.

I remember nights where the only thing that would put me to bed were the swelling of my own eyes from the endless tears.

Through the tears I'd pray..pray for the strength to get me through this hardship in my life. For the courage to move forward and away from this rut I had put myself in.

I promised that if HE got me through this, I'd be forever grateful. I'd become a better individual and promise to slowly but surely restore myself to be better than before. the new and improved me.

After many tears and countless prayers.. one day I just stopped crying. I'd run out of tears, the pain was simply a hallow space in my heart, and I was ready to move forward.

Often times we pray only when we need God, but after my dwindling Faith got me through one of the hardest times of my life, my spiritual side has been stronger than ever.

Thankful for every new day I am blessed to see. Thankful for the opportunities presented for me, and thankful to still have my access to this crazy beautiful ride we call life.

LIVE . LOVE . LEARN


"Let all that you do be done in Love."
1 Corinthians 16:14

L O V E

dope dope dope.

Walk By Faith And Not By Sight

...easier said than done.

T.O.M (Time Of the Month) has got a gal extra homotional with a soda on the side.

I can't quite put a finger on how I'm feeling.... I just know I'm going to have eliminate a few things out of my life for my sanity's sake and pray, A LOT.

Usually I'm good at suppressing things that need to be, but I'm trying a different approach with life, and that's to embrace all feelings.. good, bad, uncomfortable, ugly, and wonderful.

Human nature and being reasonable don't get along very well.

I've got a lot of pent up aggression but it's not in me to act out just because I'm feeling a certain way. Self-control and prayer will get you far in life.


God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

This morning is unlike any other Saturday morning for me.

For some odd reason I've been waking up extremely early lately. Anyone who knows me, knows I'm not a morning person, but as of lately, I have been.

They say stress wears you down, depression can have you extra fatigued, and I never really believed it until both of those elements were eliminated from my life. For the past almost 2 months, my worries have been removed, stress has been non-existent, and a smile has been on my face around the clock. I have him to thank. Although I've told myself to tread lightly, even doing that, has opened my eyes to many things that I was missing before. There's always room for improvement, and loving the fact.

This morning as I logged into Facebook I saw a handful of friends had birthday's. I went through the list, wishing each and everyone a very happy birthday until I got to the last name.

Time stopped for a second, I closed my eyes and breathed in a slowly. It's been almost a year since we lost him and not a day goes by that I don't think about him and miss him twice as much. My child-hood friend, my brother-from-another-mother, my now Angel. I know I had a hard time coping with his death.. and I forced myself not to cry.. but I'd continue to see him in my dreams, night after night, not sure what he was trying to tell me. After these series of dreams I realized what they all meant, he was in a better place, he was watching over us, and to let him go. I woke up at 3AM and cried, I mean really cried. All the pain I had been holding in.. was now streaming down my cheeks,across my lips and dampening my pillow. I've never dealt with Death very well, but losing a close friend caused me not only deal but embrace it, immediately.

Since he passed I've lived my life differently. Not taking advantage of any day that God blesses me to see. Even those days that seem impossible and intolerable to get through, I know he wouldn't bring me to it if he wouldn't bring me through it. Life truly is too short not to be happy.. and I tell myself this everyday. No matter what anyone else thinks, your life is yours and yours alone. Do what makes you happy and truly enjoy this gift we were given called Life.

Don't Press Rewind, Just Let It Play

“You can’t undo the past, but you can control it. Some people are frozen
in the injuries, insults, and lost opportunities of the past while life
passes them by. You have way too much going for you to do that. Instead,
examine your past, learn the lessons, chart out a bright future, and start
moving toward it with confidence. “

SALADS!

I've been on a health kick lately and have encountered two of the most delicious salad's I've ever had in life.

First one is from El Pasaeo Restaurant. It's called the Shrimp Ajo Salad.





Ingredients: Seasoned Shrimp sautéed in garlic Butter Sauce served on a bed of Romaine lettuce with avocado slices and tomato wedges topped with Monterey Jack cheese.

I usually get it with a vinaigrette.. to die for.

2nd up: Strawberry Poppyseed & Chicken Salad

Ingredients: All-natural, antibiotic-free chicken, romaine, strawberries, blueberries, pineapple, Mandarin oranges, pecans & reduced sugar, fat-free poppyseed dressing.

Sorry for not having visuals.. will work on that soon..

but I encourage anybody to pleaaaase go out and try them :)

Great Quote..

"i am the author of my life, unfortunatley im writing in pen so i cant erase my mistakes, have no regrets, live life now before its too late." - Ricky Prasasouk

funny how you can find a little wisdom via facebook.

have a blessed week folks.

H U M B L E

"Humble yourself and let it go. And "IT" can be anything you want it to be. (A relationship, a bad habit, a sin, etc.)"


22 years on this earth and it's safe to say I'm content with where I am emotionally, physically, and mentally.


The gym and I have been very close so far this year.. I feel funny if I don't incorporate it into my life at least 3 times a week.. so that's a plus.

I just finished the 2nd book in the True Blood Series, I can say I'm addicted. Have yet to watch the actual shows, I'll probably start after I finish the series because I heard they are a bit different.

I've noticed that being humble gets you a lot further in life than being any other way. Always room for improvement.. all smiles at the route my life is going.

Blessed blessed blessed.

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