This morning is unlike any other Saturday morning for me.

For some odd reason I've been waking up extremely early lately. Anyone who knows me, knows I'm not a morning person, but as of lately, I have been.

They say stress wears you down, depression can have you extra fatigued, and I never really believed it until both of those elements were eliminated from my life. For the past almost 2 months, my worries have been removed, stress has been non-existent, and a smile has been on my face around the clock. I have him to thank. Although I've told myself to tread lightly, even doing that, has opened my eyes to many things that I was missing before. There's always room for improvement, and loving the fact.

This morning as I logged into Facebook I saw a handful of friends had birthday's. I went through the list, wishing each and everyone a very happy birthday until I got to the last name.

Time stopped for a second, I closed my eyes and breathed in a slowly. It's been almost a year since we lost him and not a day goes by that I don't think about him and miss him twice as much. My child-hood friend, my brother-from-another-mother, my now Angel. I know I had a hard time coping with his death.. and I forced myself not to cry.. but I'd continue to see him in my dreams, night after night, not sure what he was trying to tell me. After these series of dreams I realized what they all meant, he was in a better place, he was watching over us, and to let him go. I woke up at 3AM and cried, I mean really cried. All the pain I had been holding in.. was now streaming down my cheeks,across my lips and dampening my pillow. I've never dealt with Death very well, but losing a close friend caused me not only deal but embrace it, immediately.

Since he passed I've lived my life differently. Not taking advantage of any day that God blesses me to see. Even those days that seem impossible and intolerable to get through, I know he wouldn't bring me to it if he wouldn't bring me through it. Life truly is too short not to be happy.. and I tell myself this everyday. No matter what anyone else thinks, your life is yours and yours alone. Do what makes you happy and truly enjoy this gift we were given called Life.

Don't Press Rewind, Just Let It Play

“You can’t undo the past, but you can control it. Some people are frozen
in the injuries, insults, and lost opportunities of the past while life
passes them by. You have way too much going for you to do that. Instead,
examine your past, learn the lessons, chart out a bright future, and start
moving toward it with confidence. “

SALADS!

I've been on a health kick lately and have encountered two of the most delicious salad's I've ever had in life.

First one is from El Pasaeo Restaurant. It's called the Shrimp Ajo Salad.





Ingredients: Seasoned Shrimp sautéed in garlic Butter Sauce served on a bed of Romaine lettuce with avocado slices and tomato wedges topped with Monterey Jack cheese.

I usually get it with a vinaigrette.. to die for.

2nd up: Strawberry Poppyseed & Chicken Salad

Ingredients: All-natural, antibiotic-free chicken, romaine, strawberries, blueberries, pineapple, Mandarin oranges, pecans & reduced sugar, fat-free poppyseed dressing.

Sorry for not having visuals.. will work on that soon..

but I encourage anybody to pleaaaase go out and try them :)

Great Quote..

"i am the author of my life, unfortunatley im writing in pen so i cant erase my mistakes, have no regrets, live life now before its too late." - Ricky Prasasouk

funny how you can find a little wisdom via facebook.

have a blessed week folks.

H U M B L E

"Humble yourself and let it go. And "IT" can be anything you want it to be. (A relationship, a bad habit, a sin, etc.)"


22 years on this earth and it's safe to say I'm content with where I am emotionally, physically, and mentally.


The gym and I have been very close so far this year.. I feel funny if I don't incorporate it into my life at least 3 times a week.. so that's a plus.

I just finished the 2nd book in the True Blood Series, I can say I'm addicted. Have yet to watch the actual shows, I'll probably start after I finish the series because I heard they are a bit different.

I've noticed that being humble gets you a lot further in life than being any other way. Always room for improvement.. all smiles at the route my life is going.

Blessed blessed blessed.

<3

WHAT LOVE IS

"Every womanizer, every player, every guy juggling three broads at the same time is only doing so out of fear. Fear of being crushed by a woman. Cause one day, back in the day, they weren't a 'player'- they liked one girl, just one. And they gave it up to her because they were little romantics back then. And they gave it up to the girl they loved, and what happened, they got rocked, they got crushed or they got destroyed, they got cheated on, or laughed at, or something. And when they are finished picking up all the little pieces of what was once they're heart, they all, every single one of them, made a vow to never give it up again. But now we are talking about the real bastards here, the ones who break heart occupationally, cuz believe it or not, originally those cats were the most beautiful, and the most romantic of them all, and you know what happened, those are the ones who got hurt worst of all. You never get over it, you recover, but you never get over it. And you know what happened, when they all recovered, you know what they all said, they all said "O.K., I see, Alright. If that's how its gonna be, I can play that way too." So you see we are all responsible for the cycle of the vicious circle."

- W H A T L O V E I S -

REMEMBER WHEN..

I know I'm not incredibly old, but I know times have definitely changed. While laying in bed last night, watching a movie from my laptop and communicating via text, I remember not even 10 years ago, things were much more different.

Remember the days of the AOL/AIM chatrooms? You'd stay up all night on your mamas' 56k chatting away.. taking 30 minutes to download your favorite song, and getting excited at the sound of the specialized AIM alert you had set for your boo once they had signed on.

I remember sitting up in the uncomfortable computer chair.. chatting into the whee hours of the night (since texting had not been hawt yet), and you wouldn't dare let your house phone ring that late. Or, you'd try to time it perfectly, call the weather number and wait for the call to come in and click over. Those were the days.

I think the progression of technology and how we communicate has hindered a lot of people's ability to verbally communicate. They can go on forever via text or IM.. get them infront of you and they're a deer caught in headlights. Ironic isn't it?

Crazy how times have changed. I've got my parents hip to texting, I'm sure it's a whole new world to them. I can only imagine the communication outlet's my future kids will have.

REMEMBER WHEN...