P.U.S.H

I know you all have heard me speak about strengthening my spiritual side this year. I’ve done more praying this year than I probably have my entire 21, almost 22 years, of existence.

I have to put faith that everything happens for a reason. Life isn’t easy, and for each hardship, comes a lesson learned. Slowly but surely things are looking up, but there’s still a lot of work to achieve all my goals.

I’m so grateful for all the opportunities I’ve been granted this year. I’m trying my best not to take advantage of any blessings that are coming my way, but I have to be honest with myself.. I can’t accept them all. That would be greedy of me; would it not?

Until then, I’ll continue to P.U.S.H.

PRAY UNTIL SOMETHING HAPPENS

The human race regardless of how far we've evolved, really has not changed. The saying "History repeats itself," still stands true year after year, and all that really changes is our way of living with the tactile things in our life.

But what about those things in which we cannot obtain with money? Two of the most important things in life that society desires is LOVE, immediately after that, would be POWER.

Individuals are constantly competing to be "the best", to hold all the "power" that they possibly can in their position, and are willing to do almost anything to get it.

You constantly hear stories of crime, deceit, betrayal, and scandal. You think to yourself, what could possibly drive anyone to willingly disregard their morals? Power.

But when and where do we draw the line? How far do our morals and beliefs have to be pushed?

The lust for power is overwhelming especially for those who have constantly yearned for it. It's something many have dreamed about and only a few have been able to achieve.

I've come to conclude that if everyone were equal we'd be a very boring society. Diversity is what makes us. Power comes to those who are destined for it. So keep one thing in mind, everything that shall be, shall be.

Perceptions

I don't know if it's just me, but I have a strong liking for in-depth conversations. I like to think outside of the box, see things that might have been right under my nose, and really have an "open-mind" about anything and everything.

In-depth conversations compare to a mental-sex-session for me.

What I've noticed is that you usually get the best conversation from the people you'd least expect. Within a group of friends you more than likely have the same opinions about a lot of general things.
Find a total stranger that could be your complete opposite and be taken for a wild ride.

I've never been too keen on talking to strangers but I might need to do it more often. Perhaps my desire for these kinds of conversations has been fed by my activity on a message board that I've been an active member on for the past 2 years. So many different folks from all over the world.. All with a different opinion. Although you may not agree with it, you can definitely respect it.. To each his own.

I'm in one of those moods.. Feel like cookin a good meal, havin a drink or two, and gettin' stimulated; mentally.

A Woman's Love

Nothing on this planet can compare with a woman’s
Love—it is kind and compassionate, patient and nurturing,
generous and sweet and unconditional. Pure.
If you are her man, she will walk on water and through a
mountain for you, too, no matter how you’ve acted out, no
matter what crazy thing you’ve done, no matter the time or
demand. If you are her man, she will talk to you until there just
aren’t any more words left to say, encourage you when you’re
at rock bottom and think there just isn’t any way out, hold you
in her arms when you’re sick, and laugh with you when you’re
up. And if you’re her man and that woman loves you—I mean
really loves you?—she will shine you up when you’re dusty,
encourage you when you’re down, defend you even when she’s
not so sure you were right, and hang on your every word, even
when you’re not saying anything worth listening to. And no
matter what you do, no matter how many times her friends say
you’re no good, no matter how many times you slam the door
on the relationship, she will give you her very best and then
some, and keep right on trying to win over your heart, even
when you act like everything she’s done to convince you she’s
The One just isn’t good enough.
That’s a woman’s love—it stands the test of time, logic, and
all circumstance.
~ Steve Harvey

When The Music Hits..

you feel no pain..

One of my favorite aspiring musicians on Youtube is Bridget Hermano.

Check out her Channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/bri3jet

I don't have a favorite video.. they're all amazing.

onions and shit

You know how people are sometimes compared to onions? They have multiple layers and once you finally get to the core, the heart, the foundation of it, you've got to the best part?

That's how I am. Sometimes I forget how complicated and difficult I can be to those who are near and dear to me. I have layers upon layers, but once you're in..you're in there like swimwear.

I've been more in touch with the core part of my emotions a lot lately. It's a place I never liked to visit often because I was forced to be real with myself. No more layers, it just was, what it was.

I've been more open lately, but I still catch myself defensive as hell sometimes. My past has made me who I am today but I need to remember not to let it effect my present, and most importantly my future. I told myself this year I was going to work on a better me. I've been strengthening my spiritual side, slowly but surely. I've learned to forgive those who have wronged me, to not let offense burden my mind and my heart.. but those emotional scars run a lot deeper than you may think sometimes. I have to catch myself sometimes because I have to remember who I'm talking to. They say nine times out of ten when you and your significant other are going at it.. the rage.. the words.. all that isn't really directed at them.. it's at the ex.. the pain.. the denial.. I've learned to be a lot more patient.. because I too was incredibly naive not too long ago. It took something huge for me to finally open my eyes.. but I just wish that I had someone who was patient enough with me.. but you live and you learn. Praying for the strength and patience to steady work on a better me. Almost half a year under our belt, and still have time to go. Change doesn't come in a day.. but as long as my efforts are consistent.. I have faith it will all work out for the best.

Feeling the love.

I'm not sure if it's just me, but as of lately.. I'll say within the past year.. I've been feeling a lot more love than ever before.

A lot of times when you're content with your life, and happy with who you are inside and out, other people tend to do the same.

It took me a while to get here, but I can honestly say that I'm happy that I am.

Granted I have issues just like the next person, I've really been strengthening my spiritual side and it's made me the person I've been striving to be for a long time. I use to have a lot insecurities, but after plenty of trial and error, I've learned how to fully embrace life and love it for everything it is. The good, the bad, and the ugly.

Change doesn't come in a day, so not only has my patience been strengthened but so has my faith.

loving me. loving you. loving it.